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My mum Is So Darn Attitude!! I Think She's Suffering From "PRe-Mature" MenoPause.. Bloody Bitch.. Have Been Giving Mi Attitude And That Sickening Face Of Hers.. And I Dun Understand Why People Keep Saying That We Look Alike.. When I Dun Think So.. God Please Dun Let Mi Look Alike HEr.. I Dun Wanna Treat My Kid Like How She DOes..
It's Like.. Jus Now, When She Wants Mi To Accompany HEr To Go Out To Shop, She Used Dad's Name.. Saying That, Dad's Not Around, So You've To Go Shopping With Mi.. It's Wat Dad Said Before He Left For Indo To Start Business There.. True La.. But Cant She Say It In A Nicer Way.. I Mean, She's Asking Mi To Go Shopping With Her, And She's Saying It Like It's A Must.. I'm Being Taken For Granted By Her!! Grr! But Forget It..
Shall See IF SHe's Able To Buy CNY Clothes OR Not.. She Haven Been Going on A Diet.. ANd HAven Been Exercising.. Sigh.. Dunno Wat's On Her Mind.. E-Diot!!! *Angry*
I Think I Have Been Depressive For Quite Some Time Aredi.. Though I Dun Cut My Wrist Or Punch The Wall Repeatedly Or Washing My Hands Obssessively.. But I'm experiencing Great MoodSwings.. And Sandy's Giving In So Much To Mi.. Restricting Mi From This And That.. Until i Dunno How To Release The Anger In Mi.. Except To Come Online To Thrash Everything Out In This Blog Of Mine, OR Lock Myself Up In My room.. Sigh.. I'm totally Not Alright.. Although I Wish i am.. But I'm Not.. Sigh.. I Miss My Old Self.. Hopefully I Will Get Over With The Wall That Surrounds My Heart And Jus Be The Same Old Brand New Mi.. Sigh..
By God's Name, I Say, I Will Forsake The Hatred That I'm Having At This Moment, To Accompany Her To Shopping Later..

To The Heavens Above,
I Pray To God,
Please Guide Mi Through,
The Barrier Of My Own.
God, Please Let Mi Get Over It.
And Let Mi Be,
The same Old Brand New Mi.
Thank You, God,
For Giving Mi People Like,
YiTing, Melody, Elita,
Elmo, Jordan, Louis
And Justin..
Their Angels Sent From Above.
Please Bring Peace To Them,
And Peace To The World.

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Yesterday Was Regina's Birthday.. We Went To Party World At The Hello Singtel There.. To Sing And Have Fun With Jon, Ah Girl And Regina.. Sang From 3 To 7.. And The 3 Of Us Kissed Regina On The Cheeks To Wish Her Happy Birthday.. So Cute!! Regina Was So Happy That She Seemed Like She Jus Came Outta The Mental Institute..
Those People There Are Rude Man.. they Dun Knock On The Door Before They Come Into Your Room.. They Jus Open And Suddenly Come In To Collect The Money.. Then They'll Give You A Snobby Face.. Feel Like Slapping The People There.. They Keep Coming In And Out, That I Jus Suddenly Stop My Singing And Said, "Ill-Mannered" On The MIke.. He Was Like Staring At Mi.. But I Jus Ignored Him..
Then, Later When We LEft The Place DesMond And Norman Came To look For Ah Girl.. And He Ran To The Toilet With One Kinda Action.. Funny Guy.. He Sent Us To Downtown East And LEft.. Slept On The Car.. Was Feeling Kinda Dizzy..
Went to Elmo's Chalet.. Upon Reaching There, We Went Up To The Room And Rested There.. For Quite Some Time.. Then Ting, Raine And Xiong Came Aredi!! Hug TIng And Kissed Her.. Went Downstairs To Eat.. Then Waited For My Food To Be Ready.. Suddenly Remembered that Regina Dun Have A Cake!! So, Jon and I Went Out To Buy.. Took Quite Some Time La.. Went Back There.. Told Ting, Then We Lighted The Candle And Jus Brought The Cake In Front Of Rgina.. She Was So Touched That, Once Again, She Cried.. And Worried About Her Mascara.. We Were LAughing At Her, For Crying.. Later We Actually Wanted To Go Up To The Room To "Rape" Regina.. But elmo Came Out And Tell Us That The Guys Inside Are Watching Porn!! All Of Us Was Saying That It's Weird To Be Wathing In A Chalet.. And I Think It's So DownRight Shameless!! We Were Sort Of Talking Dirrty Downstairs.. Cause Of Them.. But We Didnt visualise Anything.. HAha.. Fun La..
Then, Later, We Still Went Upstairs.. We Were Like Watching A Japen Anime.. Bloody Anime.. Like Some Kinda Anime Porn Like That.. There's One Part Where The gal Fell And The Guy Jus Catch Her, And Accidentally Squeezed Her Boobs.. EeEeW.. Suddenly Xiong, Wanted To Play MahJong, So We Went Out To Rent mahJong Table.. Mm.. By The TIme We Rent It Eh, My Mum Called To Say That She's On The Way Aredi.. And Mi and Regina Was There, Waiting For Kae-Jay To COme Outta There To Pass Us Our Bags.. But We Decided To accompany Them To Go In.. Halfway, Saw My Brother.. He Helped With The Chairs And Wernt BAk In.. Didnt Go Home With Us.. Was Kinda Sad La.. Cant Stay Over.. Ting Later Escorted Us Out.. Sent Us To The Main Gate.. So Nice Of HEr..
Jon Was Hestitating To Stay Over Or Not.. Then I Told Him To Stay Over If Her Wans To Lor.. Then HE Did.. Stayed There To PLay MahJong..
Reached Home.. Mum was Asking MI To Remember To Off The Cooker If I Dun Wanna at The Fried Rice, Told Her A Few Times That I Didnt wanna Eat When She Switched On The Cooker.. But She Ignored mi.. Then, Later I Went To Her and Said That I DUn Wanna Eat, Must off The Cooker Now Anot? She Gave Mi The Sickening Look Again, And Raised Her Voice At Mi.. Bloody Bitch!!
Spoke To Jon For Awhile On The Phone.. Was Supposed To Call Him Back 5 Minutes Later.. But I Fell Asleep Within That Five Minutes.. Got Suan By Him.. Haha..

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Thursday, January 27, 2005

I Hate You Mum!! I Really Do! Why Do You Always Have To Give My Some Sickening Face And Stare At Mi, Whenever I Disagree With You On Something, Or Dun Wanna Help You With Something? I Did No Wrong! Read My Lips! If You Ever Get To Read This, Read All you Wan, i Dun Bloody Care!! MuthaFarkin ArseHole! You're Sucha Pain In the Neck!! Why Do You AHve To Interfere n Watever I Do.. And Nag So Much At mi.. Why Cant You Jus Leave Mi Alone When You're Supposed To And Jus Shutup?
I've O Levels This Year, And I'm Struggling With My Personal Problems, And At The Same Time, The Problem Between Mi And You! I Was Jus Telling You To Not Give Mi Any Facial Expressions That Will Make Mi Go MAd About It, But Guess Wat?! You Bloody Screamed Your MuthaFuckin Ass At Mi And Deny About It. You Still Dare To Say Mi?!
You Wan Mi To Be A Disciplined, Obedient, Independent And Non-Complaining Girl.. And Know Wat?! I'm Independent! And Always Trying To Not Complain Until I Cant Take It.. And I'm Trying To Be Obedient To You, Though I Didnt Really AGree With Your Doings And Sayings At Times. I Bear With It.. As For Discipline, You need Not Worry. Cause Although You're My Mum, you've Got No Rights To! I'm Telling You, No Rights To! You May Say That You're This Obedient And That Obedient When You Were My Age, But Do You Think I Care?
Have You Ever Spare A Thought For How I Feel?
Have You Ever Put Yourself Into My Shoes To Certain Things?
Have You Ever Cared For Mi Like How You Cared For Didi?
Have You Ever Wondered, Why I Always wan To Stay Away From Home?
You Said You Understand Mi.. But How Much, Exactly DO You Understand Mi?
Do You Even Try Looking 'Beneath' mi?
Try To Initiate A Mind To Mind Talk With Mi?
Or Wondered Why I Always lock And IsoLate Myself In My Room, From Everybody In the Family? And Talk On The Phone Or Use The Computer, Or Mayb Lying In Bed Gazing At Nothing But Air? You HAte mi Locking My Room, But Why? Cause It's More Convenient For you To Open The Door, Get And Put Stuff In..
Mum, Sometimes I Jus feel Like Breaking Down And Cry, Telling How I Feel to You.. And Telling You wat Problems I'm Facing And Telling You About My Personal Stuff.. Also, Treating You like A Best Fren And A Mother.. You Said That I Could Look For You When I'm Down WatsoEver, But Can I Really Do That? No.....
You Said I've Grown From Bad to Worse, but Do You remember The Time When I Started To Cut Myself And Self Abuse Myself.. How Did You React.. It Was About 2 Weeks LAter That You Got To Know About It.. And Who Was the One who Told You? WHo Was The One Who At least Made Mi Feel Better By Talking To Mi And Counselling Mi? It Wasnt You Who Found Out About My Wrist, It Wasnt You Who Talked And Couselled Mi.. I Was So Disappointed.. I Thought You'd Notice It.. Notice That I Bandaged My Wrist.. But You never did.... And How Did You React When You Got To Know About It? You Screamed At mi, With No Words Of Concern.. Nothing Like, " Are You ok? Let mi See Your hand.. Why Did You Do This?" I Didnt Cry That Time Because You Screamed At Mi, Because I was SOrry For Wat I Did To Myself.. I Cried, Because I Feel NO Love From You!
And Remember The Time When you Slapped Mi Repeatedly Or Even Whacked Mi With The LEather Belt? For My Room Is Messy? Without Even Knowing That I'm Hurt.. WithOut Even Feeling That My HEart's Bleeding With Every Word You Said To Mi.. I Shouted At You, You Said I'm Being DeFiant.. But I shouted For A Reason, It's To Hope That You'll Stop Slapping And Whacking Mi.. Shouting And Screaming At Mi, And Jus Explain Wat Have I Done Wrong.. Then, I Cried Again, For The Same Reason.. i Feel NO Love....
Everytime On The Streets, I See Mums Sending Their Daughters To Primary School Lovingly Hug Them And Kiss them, To Say Goodbye And Take Care.. But, Did I Get These? Who Was the One Who Makes The Effort To Send mi to School Or Hug Mi Before I Board the School Bus, And Smiling When Saying Goodbye To Mi? Mum, It Wasnt You Again.. You See It As I'm Still Young And It's A Chore To Do It.. But It's Ok.. I Dun Mind..
I Said You Dote On KuanJie More Than Mi.. Why? Cause It's So Obviously Done.. I Dun Say It Jus With One Incident.. It's Through My Whole Life.. I've Seen It And Voiced It.. But Wat Did You Say? No, I Dote On you both Equally.. Or Sometimes yOu'd Jus Shut Mi Up By Saying That, He's Youngest In The Family.. And Now, I'm Voising It Again, Wat Did You Say? You Said That, He Can Go Out Late Because He's A Guy and I'm A Girl.. Yes, It's True.. And i Know You People Care For mi.. But, Wat About Going Out? Since You Like His Company, Why Do You Not Ask Him To Cancel his Appointment With His Frenz And Go With You? Instead, you Ask Mi To Cancel My Appointment With My Frenz, Jus To Go out And Accompany You.. Jus On The Same Day.. It HAppens All the Time.. I'm Saddened by The Fact That it's So Unequal Between mi And Him...
Saddened By the Fact That, Whenever I Change For You, And Make An Effort To Do Wat You Wan Mi To Do And Reflect On Myself.. But Wat Happens Next? I Get Taken Advantage Of.. By You! I Feel So Used.. And Unappreciated.. It's Like Every Single Thing i Do, Wont Satisfy You.. I Cant Recall AnyThing where You Did That Made Mi Feel So Happy.. Do You remember Any? You May Satisfy Mi By Buying The Clothes that I Wan Whenever I Cancel My Appointment And Go Out With You, You see Mi Smile, But Am i really Happy?
I Hope You'll Read this Soon.. I Dunno If You'll Feel Guilty Or Hurt By Wat I Said Or Not.. But Let mi tell You, You Dun Have To.. Although I Say How Much I Hated You And Stuff.. But I Still Treat You As My Mum.. The One Who Brought Mi Up And The One Who Bore Mi..
I shall Not Say Anymore.. I Dunno Why I'm Crying Now.. But NeverMInd About Mi.. Jus Let Mi Be..

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Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Ok.. Today, School Was BAD.. Studies Were good Overall.. But, I Was Jus Feeling Kinda Down, And Trying My Best To Act Like i'm So Alright.. I Guess, Nobody's Saw Through It.. And That's Good.. Mm.. I Put My 100% Attentiveness Into Every Lesson.. And I was Feeling So Much Like Studying, Even After School And After My Physics E.C.. This Is A Good Sign.. I Guess I'm Gonna Stay In School Quite Often.. Probably To Study Alone Or Something.. Cause, there's Jus Too Much Distractions At Home.. Look! I'm Here using The Computer And Blog.. Sigh..
I Said School Was Bad Today Was Because, I Accidentally Hit Elita, And Here Fried Prawn Mee Spilled On The Floor.. Initially, I Think She's Kinda Pissed.. And Nico Jus Made It Worse By Clapping.. Sigh.. I Didnt Do It On Purpose.. I Didnt Know I'll Hit You.. Sigh..
Forget It.. I'm Not Going To Elaborate On The Matter..
Went To See The NEtball Match At Dunman Secondary.. TKS Girls Is A Bunch Of Rough Girls Man.. The Way They Played Was Like.. Kinda Rough.. I Know It's A Ball Game, So Claching into Each Other Is Very Common, But It Seemed Like They Did It Intentionally.. And I Wasnt Very Happy About It..
Kinda Regretted For Not Joining NEtball And Judo At The Same Time.. If There's Volleyball, I Might Wanna Join that Too.. My Favourite CCAs.. Hmm... Forget It.. I'm Not In The Mood To Blog Today..... It MIght Be Quite Some Time Later BEfore I Start BLogging Again....
Oh, Elita Darling.... Dun Explain K.... Jus Drop The Matter.... It's Ok....

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Monday, January 24, 2005

I'm Bandaging My Leg, For The Sake Of Bandaging It.. Why? Cause For The Past few Days, I've Had Unsuccessful Attempts OF Looking For My KAPPA Shoes.. And My Sport Shoes Are Like Washing.. Or Rather Drying.. So I'm Most Probably Gonna Wear Slippers To School Tmr.. Gonna Bandage It Real Tight.. And Give An Excuse That, After My camp, mY Ankle Was Sort Of Swollen.. Went To See The Chinese PhysiCian, And HE Says That I Hurt My Ankle.. But Recovering.. So Will Be Able To Get My Bandage Off Probably On Tuesday Or Wednesday.. Haha.. first Time.. How Fun!!
My Back's Killing And My Heart's Aching.. Why? Cause I Didnt Buy Any More NEw YEar Clothes.. And I've Only Got One Which I Bought Myself.. I Cant Buy Any CNY Clothes At All.. It's Either, Their Too Expensive Or Too "Revealing" As Referred By My Parents..
No CNY Tops, Bottoms Or Shoes.. And No CNY Accessories.. Sigh..I'm Not Even In The Mood FOr CNY.. I'd Rather Stay Home Man.. Cause i'm Only Allowed To Wear T-Shirts.. Guess I'll Look Very Rugged This CNY..
A Moment Ago, I Was Whining ANd Whining At Sandy.. About Mi Not Getting Any CNY Clothes.. Sigh.. Feel So Down.. It Doesnt Seem A Joyous Occasion To Mi.. Mayb If JusTin And XuePin's Family's Going, Then It'll BE More Fun La.. OR Else, It'll Be BORING~ All The Way.. And This CNY, Lydea's not Celebrating Also.. SianZ.. I Miss HEr..

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Sunday, January 23, 2005

One Of My Fren's BoyFren Is Leaving For NZ Soon.. Like In Another 2 Days time I Guess.. Mm.. Hopefully She Wont Cry When He's Leaving.. Eunice Girl!! Take It Easy Ya? You Can Always Look For Mi If You Need SomeOne To talK To.. And, Study HArd!! It's The IMPORTANT year!! Set Your Targets higher.. So, You'll Push Yourself to Study More.. that's Something I LEarnt From My Camp!!

Ok.. i Jus Realised Something.. My Younger Brother, kae-Jay.. He Took a Pic With KimBerly.. And I Think He Looked Kinda Charming And Photogenic In That NeoPrint.. Mm MmMm~ You Go Boy!! haha.. Sigh.. Haven Start On My Art Work!! Die! How? It's A Collage!! Dunno How To Spell La.. KaoZ.. Gonna Go get The Materials Soon.. Grr.. So Ma Fan.. How I Wish that I Can Jus Start On My O Levels Art Work Now.. So I Wont have To rush In The End.. GRRR..

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wahahah.. Went Out With Louis Ah Ma, Elita Darling, Mellie Sweetie And Sandy!! Hehe.. We Went To Town And Then To Bugis.. Had Loads Of Fun!
Saw A top At CHAOS, FarEast Plaza.. but Cant Buy It.. Why? Cause It's Over My Mum's Budget.. Was So Eager To Get It.. It's An Off Shoulder White Top.. Was Whining And Whining About Wanting To Buy It.. Sigh.. And Then, Saw Another Tube Top At The Shop Opposite, Adore Bikinis, Parco Bugis Junction's EDGE.. It's Super My Type La.. But Still, Cant Buy It Again.. Why? Again, It's Over My Mum's Budget.. And She Doesnt Allow Mi To Wear Tube Tops Alone, With A Jeans Or Skirt.. KaoZ.. But I Think I'd Wanna Get It Soon.. Gonna Pull My mother Along To See Those Tops.. Tempted To Get It Asap!! Feel In love With Both Of Them at First Sight!! And Later In the Night.. I Was Wanting To Go Home, But Thinking That I'd Get Ticked Off If I Go Home Empty Handed, I Decided To Go Buy My School shoes.. And I Went Up To The Second Level Of Seiyu, And Found The Pair That I Want.. Was VEry Pek Chek, cause i'm Tired, And My Old Injury Is Back.. Both My Left Knee And My Back.. Then, I Walked A Distance, To Find A Pair Of KAPPA Shoes That I Always Wanted To Buy.. But There Was No Sales Assistant There, So i Dug And Dug For That Pair Of Shoes.. And At The Same Time, GRumbling And MumBling.. Whining And Digging.. Messing Up the Place.. And With The Help Of Sandy, i Still Couldnt Find My Size.. GRRR!! It Sure Pissed Mi Off Alot.. And I Guess, Sandy Got A Shock From Seeing Mi, Going All Crazy Over A Pair Of Shoe.. Ahhh! But Seriously, I Went Out The Whole Day And Couldnt Buy Anything.. How Frustrated Will I Feel Man.. Sigh..
AnyWays, Today Was Fun, And Louis Ah Ma Made It Even More For Us.. Through His Reactions, Expressions And His ACTIONS!! Haha.. Great Joker!! Ah MA, I Miss You!! Haha.. ok, I Sound Sick..
AnyWays, My Darling And Sweetie.. Please Dun think So Much About Your Problems K.. Jus Try To Let Loose.. Mayb You'll Feel Better.. I Love Both Of You!! Muackz!!
And Sweetie, Please Dun Smoke Too Much, It's Bad For Health..
Also, Darling, Please Take Care And Dun Think So Much About Him..
You Both DuN Do Anything To Hurt Youself Ah!!
Oh.. Ting Dearie.. I'm So Sorry.. Very Sorry.. Didnt Ask You out With Us Today.. But I Will Next Time Ok.. Muackz!! My ApoloGies.. Love You.. And Also, Take Care K.. Dun Do Silly Stuff To hurt Yourself.. It Hurts To see The 3 Of You Hurt..
And Louis Ah Ma!! I You Ever See This Entry!! Please, Take Care Of Your Forehead.. Hope It's Ok..

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Friday, January 21, 2005

hehe.. back from camp! Yay! I've Learnt So Much There.. Had Fun, Got To Know My Class Mates Better..
Let Mi Tell You Wat HAppened During The Camp.. Here Goes..

First Day:
Went There With A Smile.. 2 teams.. 5 Groups Each.. 1 Team, Did The Outdoor First.. Whereas Another Team, Went For Lecture.. My Team Did the OutDoors First..
We Went Out, To Do this Quiz.. It's To Build Up Team Spirit.. We took Quite Some Time To Realise The Answer.. And When We Knew Th Answer, We Were Scolding ourselves.. Scolding Something Like, " Why The Heck Did We Not Think Of It.. Stupid Fool.." haha.. Then We Went On And On.. Was The 2nd Group To Finish Everything.. But, 4th Group To Reach the Dining Hall.. Cause One Of The Organisers Called To Say That 2 Teams Are Already There.. HEhe.. And Guess Wat?! 1 team Was Disqualified.. Due To Certain Reason.. And We Were So Happy!! HAha..
Then,After Lunch, Our Team Was Supposed To Get Our Rooms, But The 7 Bedder Room Was Took By 410 And 407! There's 3 7Bedder Room, 407 Took 2 Of the Rooms!! So, Our Class wasnt VEry Happy.. And The Couseller Wants Us To Then Split Up Into 5 Person To One Room.. But We Have 6 Girls.. And We Have To Split Up.. Revathi And Devi Then Had To go Over To the Other Group To Share A Room With Them.. And There Left Mi, Michelle, Celine And Monkey Fang.. With Another Group Of Malay Girls, Zafira, Rasyidah, Isabella And Izzati.. We Dun wanna Split Up.. But In The end We Still Have To.. Cause 2 Other Girls From 407 Didnt Have A Room..
We Argued And Argued.. As Uncle David Was About To Give Us The 7 Bedder Room, Auntie Rachel Shouted And Said To Uncle David That, He Cant Satisfy EveryBody.. So We Werent very Hppy.. And I Decided To jus Go Over To Zafira's Room To Stay Over.. Though I Wasnt Very Happy With That.. But, It's Ok.. And Guess Wat? We Had To Get The 2 Dirtiest Room.. It's The 2 Rooms Where Everybody Jus Threw Their Bag And Stepped Around In.. EeEew!! It Sure Pissed mi Off.. But Guess Wat?! those 2 407 Girls Decided To Share Rooms With One Other Group, Who Got The 7 Bedder, And I Got To Go Over To Sleep With Michelle And All.. hahaha.. So We Were Reunited In the End.. AnD There Was NightWalk.. Darn Fun, And Darn Scary.. I Got very Psycho When I Started Hearing That Michelle Got Bitten By Ants And That i Had To Go Down And Crawl.. Wah! That Was Scary~ HEh.. Was BlindFolded All The Way.. Got Muddy, Shoes Got wet, Darn Dirty..

2nd Day:
Hehe.. Woke Up Early, Had Our Breakfast And Off We go to the Kent Ridge Park, Which Was Jus Right Beside Our CampSite.. Mm.. We Went to A Place Where There's Benches, The Instructors Taught Us A Few Songs For The Campfire That Night..
And Explained To Us The Rules And Wat To find FOr The Scanvanger Hunt Later.. We Gotta Look For 10 Items In 30 Minutes.. So, Off We Go.. And My Group Got Hold Of Almost Everything, And We Got 91/100!! Highest And Best Group! AHah.. Then, We Played The Other Games, With Team Work, We Manged tO Get Through Every challenge.. But, there Wasnt Eough Time For The Last Item.. But It's Ok.. HEhe..
Later, We Went Back To the Dining Hall, And Guess Wat's Our Theme FOr The CampFire That Night.. It's East View Idol!!! GoodNEss Mi.. Luckily I Wasnt Chosen.. It Was real Scary When A Few Of Them Was Like Saying, "KuanLi, KuanLi Can Sing!" When I Dun Even Sing Well.. Bloody Hell..But It's Ok.. We chosen MuHua And FirDaus ( The Head Prefect) In The End..
Had Lunch And Went Over To Lecture.. It Was A Long One.. And Uncle David Did Something With us, and The Process Of It Was Scary.. Many Cried.. Even Guys.. He Touched Our Raw NErve.. Sigh.. Uncle David Keep Calling Mi A Tibetan Terrier Or Something.. cause My Hair Was Messy all the Time.. heh.. And He says That I'm Quiet.. Haha.. Mi, quiet? When Did that Happen? heh..
Overall, The Activity He Did With Us, Sure Helped Us Realise How Important Our Family Mean To us..
Then, We did Target Setting.. Haha.. Fun Though.. My Social Studies Teacher, Mr Foo Saw mi Hestitaing, and Reluctant To Set My Grades For That Subject.. And He Told Mi, I Think You Can Put A1.. i Was So Happy, And Said Thank You Very Loudly.. He's Been Helping Mi Alot Since He Got To Be My Class F.T Last Year, A Very Nice TEacher..
Had Dinner, And We Were Idling Around In The Room, In The Dining Hall.. Cause We've got Loads Of time.. And Because Of That, I Was Scared By My Fren, Michelle!! And The Other Few ClassMate.. I Was Running Around The Room At First like A Mad Woman.. Cause I Saw An Insect Flying Around.. Damn It!! Screaming Here And There.. Sickening.. And Michelle Actually Recorded Every Single thing.. AfterWards, She Told Adam And Sufiyan That I'm Afraid Of Insects.. They CActually Went To Catch And Ant And Hold It Right Infront Of MI.. I Screamed Shouted And This And That.. HAha.. If Michelle Can Send Those 2 Videos To Mi, I'm Gonna Upload It Here For you All To See And Hear all the Scareming I Did.. I'm Highly InsectoPhobic!!!
Then, The CampFire Started At 8.30.. There Was A Skit Done By The Other Team.. Darn Funny.. And Here comes, The EASTVIEW IDOL!! AHha.. A Whole Lot Of Fun.. Many "Singers" Were From My Class.. Wah! they're Darn Sporting.. And My ClassMate, Khalis, Managed To be The First EAST VIEW IDOL!! Haha.. After That, Our Teachers Bought Canadian Pizza For Us All To Eat!! Was Very Touched And GrateFul.. Ate, And Had A Class Conference Of Our Own.. it Was A SuccessFul One.. KNew More About The Class, And wat We Expect From Each Other.. Very Good.. Gonna Take Some Actions To Change The Class Spirit!! Then, Slept At 3 Plus In the Morning.. Played Stress With Michelle!! ahha.. Fun!!

3rd Day.. Had LEcture.. And After That, Rasyidah Lost Her Phone.. Sigh.. Feel Sad For Her.. And Guess Wat? I Felt A Sense Of Relief That I Didnt Insist For A 7Bedder Room, And was Lucky Enough To Get The 1st Floor's Room.. Whew! cause There Was Weird Encounters Happened In the 2nd And 3 Storey..

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Sunday, January 16, 2005

Sigh.. Am I Jus Being ParaNoid Or Wat..... I Dunno..
Emptiness, Confusion Fills Mi..
I Dunno Wat To Say, Dunno Wat To Feel..
I'm Not That KuanLi That People Used To know.. I'm SomeOne, Who's Like A Shadow..
I'm Not As Cheerful, Not As PlayFul, Not As Self IndulGent And Self confidence As Before..
I Live In A world Of Emptiness.. with No one To rely On..
I Know There's People Like, Sandy, Ting, Melody, Elita And Elmo To Turn To..
But They, Themselves Have Problems.. And I Dun Wanna Add On Problems For Them AnyMore..
As For My Family..
I've Simply No One To Turn To.. Honestly..
I Find It Hard To Open Up my Heart To them.. Find It Extremely Difficult To Talk To Them..
Why?
Because, Their My Family Members.. People Whom I've Known Since I was In My Mum's womb..
You May Say, They're Close To Mi, Cause I See Them And Interact with Them Everyday..
But, Do I Really Interact With them Everyday?
Am I Really Close To Them?
No, I'm Not And I Dun.. I Feel So Distant.. So Near Yet So Far.. Feel Like A ToTal Stranger To them..
I see Detests In Their Eyes.. DeTests when They See Mi..
I Dunno Why..... Im Emotionally Scarred..
Feel So Insecure Everyday, Whenever I'm Home.. I Wanna Run, But I cant..
I Wanna Leave Home, I wanna Leave And Never To Come Back.. But I cant..
Why Am I Turning Into someOne Like tHat..
I Hate MySelf.. I Despise MySelf.. More than Anyone Does..
I'm facing Problems, Problems that I Was Never Courageous Enough To Face.. Even Until now..
But, I'm Forced To.. I Can Run Away From it, But I cant Hide..
I'm Becoming So Self Conscious.. So Resistant..
I Resist My Family Members.. I Resist People Close To Mi..
I'm Afraid Of Hurting Them.. Afraid They'll Hurt Mi..
I'm Gasping For Breath.. I Cant Breathe.. I'm Struggling With My Life.. Myself.. My Own Character..
Am I Irritating? Am I So Dislikable? Is Something wrong With Mi? Why Do They Detest Mi? Wat DId I Do?
These Question Keep Ringing In My Brain.. I Cant stop MySelf From Feeling This Way..
No One Can Help Mi.. i Have To Help Myself.. But Am I?
I Lay In bed Every Night.. Hoping To Sleep.. but Once I Close My eyes, I Jus Cant Fall asleep.. No matter How Tired I Am.. Especially When I'm Alone.. Everytime When I try To Cheer MySelf up, I Laugh At Everything.. But, I Still cant Seem To Be really Happy.. It's An Act.. I Dun wan These..
Can you people Hear Mi Screaming? Can you People See How I am? Can You People Understand How I Feel?
No, No One can.. Even My Closest Kin Cant.. Even I, Myself Dun Understand Myself Already..
Am I Jus Going Through One Of The Bad Patch In My Life? Can I Overcome It? Can I See My Rainbow?
The Answer To These Questions Are So Unsure..
i Feel Like I'm Breaking Down Soon.. This Feeling Is Worst Than Dying..
I Dun wanna Die.. But I wanna Die, So As To End All These.. But Will Death really End Everything? Is It Worth It?
i'm Contradicting My Own Statement.. I DunN Wat I'm Saying.. I Guess It's All Words From My Broken Heart..
I'm crying.. But why? Am I Going to Cry Myself To Sleep Again?
Does My Family Know About My Problems? Will They Know? Will They Sit Down And Listen To Mi, If I Ever Pour My Feelings To Them?
I Dunno.. Will My parents Shut Mi Up, the Moment I Speak? Will They Say I'm Immature? Will They Jus..............
I Cant Take It AnyMore! I'm Frightenened! Where's My Lord? Where's My Saviour? Where's my Angel that's Suppose To Be Here Whenever I Need Him/Her?
Sandy Baby.. I Need You!
Ting Dearie.. I Want You!
Elita Darling.. I Love You!
Mellie Sweetie.. I Miss You!

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Is Whatever Said In This Quiz True? I dunno.. It Seem To be Contradicting Each Other, In Every Sentence Made.. What Do You People Think??


Your element is earth: Wise, solitary, mysterious
and loving. You are very wise. Your wise as in
you know things others do not, you can see past
stereotypes and see the real people behind
their facades, and people will often come to
you for help and advice. Quite solitary and
somewhat shy around people because you prefer
animals and plants, animals aren't afraid to
show themselves or what they are feeling and
plants are fun to nurture. You are very strong
in your silence if you set your mind on
something you will often times pursue it to the
end. Sometimes you just want to get away, so
you seek refuge in the forest where you can
have time to think and try to sort out your
emotions. The sound of the wind usually calms
you, especially moving through the trees. Life
to you is something precious and should not be
taken for granted.


.:-What is your true element?-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Saturday, January 15, 2005

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Friday, January 14, 2005

Ok, My Anger Is Like Going Up So Quickly And Tremendously That Im starting To Bang My Farking head On The Farking table or Wall!! And I'm Totally Dizzy And Was Feeling So Much like Puking Jus Now.. And, My heart's Like Hurting, And I mean Hurting, Not In the Sense That I Feel HeartBroken.. But Im Feeling that Pain Physically!! I Never Got So Angry Before!!
I Found out Something Like About 1 week Ago, I Was Waiting For That ArseHole To Admit It, But Guess Wat? He Didnt!!
He's A Man Of Many Words!! Idiotic Fark! Im Hating Him For That! You Know Wat I Hated. I told You Umpteen Times, why Wouldnt You Jus Oblige?!
Do You Freaking Know How Infuriating It Is To Know That You Did So Many Things?! You, Youself Know It.. i Did many Things, Jus To Give In, Not Wanting A Quarrel.. But Guess Wat?! You Said You're Trying to Belive Mi? Come On, I Dun See A thing.. I Dun See that You Make An Effort To It! And I'm telling You Here, I'm Not Happy With It!
Every Farking Thing That Happens Seem To Be Happening All At Once.. You Said I Gave you A Blow To Something Jus Now, But Guess Wat?! You Gave Mi A Blow About 1 Week Ago?! And You Know Wat?! You Said I Always Have Problems With You Whenever You're Out With Your Fren, But Wat About mi? It's Not About You Being Out With them.. It's About Things that I'm Not Happy With.. That's Wat You Said.. And It's The Same Reason!!
You Always Want People To Put Themselves in Your Shoes, But Wat About You Putting Yourself In Others' Shoes.. Im Thrashing Everything Out Here.. Im Not Pointing Fingers to AnyOne Obviously Here.. But I Know that Person Who Get Mi Started Will read These, And He'll Know Exactly Wat I mean..
I'll Compromise To You Asking Mi To Rwest Early, Cause It's With A Good Reason.. But, I Think, Not Being Demanding Towards Mi, Will Be A Better Solution To Everything.. Im Not Stubborn.. I Know Wat I Wan To Do..
Im Telling EveryBody Reading This Entry Here, I HATE TO THINK FAR AHEAD!! Ask Mi Wat I'll Be Doing 2 Years later Will Be The MAXIMUM!! Dun Even Dare Ask Mi, Wat I'll Be Doing 5 Years later! If I Say I Dunno, I really Dont! So Stop Asking Mi To.. It's mi.. You People Jus Have To Accept The Bloody FACT!!!

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whee~ Jus Came Back From School.. So Early.. Wat time Is It Only? 10plus.. hoho.. Gonna Go See Doctor Soon.. Mm.. Guess, I Really Have To Rest Alot Now.. Or Else, I'd Never Recover.. hehe.. You People Out There Take Care Too Eh.. Bye.

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Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Wah.. today Went To school.. Bad Day.. keep Forgetting This And that.. Even Forgot To Do Work.. Wat The Hell.. Was Actually quite Feverish When I Woke Up.. Wasnt Feeling Too Well.. But Still HAve to Go To School.. Or Else I Have To Go See Doctor For MC..
Ate Medicine During Chinese Lesson.. But, The Medicine Took Effect Only After 1 Hour Plus.. Making Mi Feel So Drowsy And Sleepy.. Sigh.. Overall, Jus Wasnt Feeling Too Well La.. Sickening..
Went To Eat Prata Jus Now.. Sudden Urge To Go, So I Pulled My Eldest Bro Along With Mi..

Was In Much Anger Jus Now.. jus To The Person Who Made Mi Feel So.. Although His Intention Was Good.. I Dislike It When You Raise Your Bloody Voice At Mi.. You Have Your Problems, So Do I.. You Can Share With Mi Or Something.. Instead Of Bottling Everythng Up To Yourself.. I Dun Understand Why You Have To Do that.. I Mean, By Saying It To Someone, You'll Feel Better.. You Can Tell Your 3 Buddies Also.. You Dun Have To Be In Such Bad Mood That You, Come Throwing Tantrums At mi.. So wat If You're Easily Agitated.. So Am I.. tried means And Ways To Give In.. But, You Dun Expect mi To Give In To You Until everything's Like My Fault.. Grr.. Forget It.. Shall forget this Matter.. throw It Away Like It's Some Trash..

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Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Went To School Today.. With My Throat Giving Mi Problems.. went For Art Lessons, And While Mdm Sri Was Talking, I Was Like Coughing And Coughing.. Till She Have To Stop To Allow MI To Go to The Toilet.. *Never Thought She'll Be So Kind.. But, She Can Be really Fierce..
Found Out That She's Actually Very Blur.. Tell You Wat Happened.. We Were Supposed To Have 5 Periods Of Art, Which Is 2h 30mins Of It.. But Guess Wat?! She released Us 1h 5mins Earlier.. Which Means, We Had Only 3 Periods Of Art! Haha.. But, i think We'll get Scolded By Her If She Finds Out That, We Should Have 5 Periods Of Art, But We Didnt Tell Her When She Let Us Off..
Oh, Yesterday Night Was My Grandma's Birthday.. Mm.. the Cake Was Nice.. *Yum*Yum* Did Nothing Much, But Eat.. And While We Were About To Go Home, i Suddenly Felt Pain Under My Left Rib Cage.. It hurt Like, Oh My Goodness! Ate Loads Of Heaty Stuff.. But Didnt Care Much about My Illness Also.. ahaha..

HapPy BirthDay Grandma!! Zhu(4) Ni(2), Fu(2) Ru(4) Dong(1) Hai(3), Shou(4) Bing(3) Nan(2) Shan(1) !!

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Monday, January 10, 2005

Ok.. I'm Staying Home, Not Going To School.. Why? Cause I'm Having Fever!! Goodness Mi.. SIgh.. When Will I Feel Better.. My Temperature's Like Playing Games With Mi.. Up And Down, Up And Down.. But Never Mind La.. Haha.. It's Not Very High Also.. Fever Never Mind, But It's My Nose That's Giving mI Problems.. Keep Sneezing And Whizzing.. Sianz.. I Dunno wat's Happening..
Sigh.. I'm So Missing Many Of My Frenz.. Especially, Ting, Mel, Kaising, Momo, Justin, Susanta And Jenny!! It's Been So Long Since I really Went Out With them.. Miss them So Much!! Next Time Must Take Loads Of Pictures With them Aredi..
Ok la.. Gotta Go Back To Sleep.. Feeling Quite Dizzy Now.. Bye.

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Sunday, January 09, 2005

wahaha! It's been a long Time Since I Last Blogged!! Ok.. Nothing Much Happened Actually.. I'm Now Officially Sick Man!! Cant Stand!! First Comes Flu.. Then Come COugh.. Later, Fever.. And Soon Cough Again!! wat's Happening To My Body? When Did I Become So Weak?!!! Mm.. Nvm.. Gonna Start Exercising!
OK.. I'm Jus Gonna Summarise Wat Happened In School..

4th Jan, Tuesday:
Got 5 Periods Of Art.. But It Was Free!! Cause My Teacher Didnt Come.. hehe.. Then, We did nothing much also.. But, My Chinese Teacher's Like Treating Us A Bit Like Kids.. Cause She Still Has To Arrange Our Sits And Stuff.. But, I think It's For Our Own Good La.. Cause ThiS Year Is A Very Important Year Of US.. And We Cant Lose Out.. She's A Very Responsible And Well-Respected Teacher.. Kinda Like Her.. heh.. She Was SOrt Of Pissed when Many Didnt Complete the Holiday Homework That She Gave Us.. But, She Didnt Scold Us.. Cause She Says That It's A Waste Of Time.. Had Full Dress Rehearsal For The CCa Fair that's Going On, On Thursday.. Helped Out a Bit.. Everything's Going On QUite Smoothly Actually.. So it's Alright.. Then, Our Teacher-In-Charge Told Us The Schedule On ThursDay And Stuff Liek that And Off We Go..

5th Jan, WednesDay:
Nothing Much Happened Actually.. Jus Normal School Day.. Kinda Boring Though..

6th Jan, Thursday:
Had CCA Fair Today.. Quite a Fun One.. I Was One Of the MCs For My Judo Club.. Haha.. Nervous At First, But Wasnt Later.. Quite A Successful One.. It's Like, The Sec Ones Were Kinda Impressed.. And They Were Like "Whoa!!"..
But, We Recruited Not Much People.. Less Than 20.. Why? BEcause They Think it's Violent And Too Much Of Their Liking.. And When I Wanna Go Near To Them, A Few Of Them Jus Ran Away From mi.. Like I'll Start Throwing Them All Over Once They Get Close to mi..Sianz.. But Like That Also Good La.. Cause We Wont Have To Reject People.. Like How We Did In The Past.. Oh..There's A Funny Thing That Happened.. The SJAB memebers Were Like Cheering At Some Point Of The CCa Fair.. then, The NCC Memebers were So Unhappy, That They Jus Stood Right Beside Them And Started doing Their Own Cheer.. Overcoming The Voices Of the SJAB Members.. The Judokas sure Ahd A Good Laugh.. And Also, The Band Memebers, this Is The First Time, They Came Down To The Canteen, Stood On the Table And The Band Major Jus Started Playing His Instrument trying To Attract The Attention Of The Sec Ones.. Damn Funny~ HAha.. it's SO Damn Fun La.. But, the Stupid Mrs Lye Jus Ruined Our Whole Mood.. Hate Her to Core.. Shant Elaborate.

7th Jan, Friday:
Go To School Feeling Darn Tired.. Cause The Stupid CCA Fair Ended late.. And It's My Bloody First Time Staying in School For Almost 13 Hours.. Early In The Morning, Our Principal Went up To Talk And He Spoke For Almost 1 Hour.. Went To ClassAnd Jus Unconciously Slept During Lesson.. When Mr Foo Was Teaching.. Woke Mi Up Twice.. First Time Sleeping In his Lesson.. Sorry Mr Foo.. Ok.. Then, He Was Putting A Close To His Lesson, He Asked Mi to Answer His Question.. And Unbelievably, I Can Answer.. Although I was Sleeping While He Was Teaching.. And His Reaction Was Like, " Whoa! Kuanli, you're Asleep Jus Now And You Can Still Answer my Question So Quickly And Correctly.. " ahah. Darn Surprised too..
Was Very Sian The Whole Day La.. Many Teachers Called My Class Pupils, Walking zombie.. Nice NickName!! Wahahaha..

8th Jan, saturday:
Went Out To Town To Walk Around.. Looked For Clothes.. Bought A Top, Suits 2 Of my Skirts Perfectly Well.. Mm.. Nothing Much la.. Jus Walked Around.. though I'm Sick.. Hehe.. Was Supposed to meet My Mum And Childhood Frenz At Pasir Ris Bowl.. But Didnt Go.. Cause I Didnt Felt Like It, And Was Sick Also.. So, Ya.. Nothing Much La.. Rested Kinda Early.. hhee..

9th Jan, Sunday:
Stayed Home.. Was A Little Feverish.. Didnt Realyl Feel Well.. Slept Like The Whoel Day!! Hehe.. Wat A Peeeeg I Am.. hehe.. Went Out To Eat Prata.. the Prata There Scuked Big Time!! Prefer The One At Joo Chiat!! heheh.. Was Not suppose To Eat Prata.. Cause Of My throat And My Illness.. But I Jus Had The Urge To.. So My Mum Brought Mi there.. Bought A Lot Of Groceries.. A Whole Lot Of Canned Food.. that Lasy That The Counter Mus Be Thinking That We Wanna Run Away From Home.. ahaha..

Ok.. Basically, that's It Lor.. Sianz La.. Dunno whether I Can Go to School Tmr Not.. Cause I'M Sick! wah! Save Mi!!

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Monday, January 03, 2005

Wat The Fark!! i Jus Saw A MuthaFarkin Idiot On TV.. He Was On This Channel 8 Antetainment Show.. He Stripped And Dance Like Shit!! Idiotic! He Got Insulted Twice And Here He Comes Again.. He Was On Singapore Idol Too.. His Name's Steven Or Something!! He's sucha Nuisance.. I Detest People Like Him.. Desperate Attention Attracter! Hate Him!! I Was Thinking That, Mayb He's Unstable At First.. But n The End, I Though Mayb, The Mental Institute Will Be Most Happy To Have Him There! If He Ever Gets To See This Post Of Mine.. I'd Like To Tell Him That..
You're A Bloody Idiot!! Fool! Idiotic!! Wasting People's Time Watching You!! You're A Big Time Sucker!! Freaking M.F!! May All Curses Befall You And May You Get All Your Retribution Soon!! Dun You Even Realise That You're Acting So Stupidly On national TV!! I Would've Slapped You Right In That Bloody Face Of Yours, If I Was There!! Now, Fark Off From The Media And Stop Acting This Way!! If You Really Wanna Attract Attention, You might Wanna Go To Orchard Everyday to Perform!! I'll Go There To 'Patronise' You For Sure!!

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Ok.. Today's The First Day Of School.. And Was Kinda Sian.. Did Nothing Basically.. Jus Went To School.. Listen to Some Stupid Briefing Of Mr Ee, And My Discipline Mistress.. Sickening..
The Moment I Stepped Into The School, Saw So Many Blur Faces.. Waahhaha.. Was Wondering If I were Like That When I First Stepped Into East View.. Mm.. Prolly Not.. Cause I Saw A group Of Frenz At The Gate.. Ahhaa..
Think It's Kinda Short Today.. Ended At 1pm.. But Later This Term, I Will Have Lessons After School, Until 4 plus Or 6 Plus.. Not sure.. hehe.. Also Good La.. Can Learn And Study.. Mm.. In Both The Holiday And Study Mood.. Looking For A tutor Currently.. I Think It's Can De La.. HEhe.. Gonna Study Non-Stop!! Wahaha.. So Happy.. But Tmr, The Normal Lessons Will Resume.. heeZ..

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Sunday, January 02, 2005

**Fark It! Fark It! Fark It!
There's A Farking Idiot.. He Went To One Of His Fren's Home With His Other Frenz.. Used Her computer, And Expects Mi To Change My Nick.. because His Frenz Are Around!! And When I Said That I DUn Wanna Talk Anymore.. He Said, "fine.. Bye!"
Like What The Fark?! Who The HEck Doesnt Wanna Make His/Her StaTus Or Name Known Man! Like, Why Not?! It's Farking Idiotic Man! I'm Not Very Happy About It..

** Extracted From A Blogspot I Came Across.. That Gurl Seemed So Angry.. Anger Overcame Her.. Hopefully God Will Watch Over Her..

I'm Officially That Gurl Who Lost That Smile Of Hers.. That Smile Before, Is Now Gone.. That Smile And Laugh That I Have Now, Is Now.. Officially Broken...
I Hate The Way You Treat People, In Front Of Your Frenz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And One Of Those People Is, ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways, It's Another NEw Year.. And School Is Reopening.. I HAte It!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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