Friday, September 08, 2006

Damn! i sure love school loads!

Like seriously, i started my day pretty well i guess. with smiles and everything. And I had breakfast with my roommie for the first time. That busy girl. Always having friends around her. =)

in the school computer lab currently. blogging. i mean, I'm still trying to summarize my article. lotsa research work to do. thank God there's internet in this era. else, i think i wouldn’t be able to survive that pile of books i have to go through for my research work. =(

SOMEONE says I’ve got a Singaporean Accent. i'm not saying it's not good, but it's really heavy. Grr. Seriously, it’s time I do something about my current accent.

Being in English 4U classes is a pile of dunk. I mean, it’s good, cause it’s the highest level of English here. However, I feel that it’s rather stressful. Hmm, up till now, it’s not so bad. But everything’s gonna overload soon. Now I know why the guidance counselor somehow advised me to not take so many subjects at one time. It’d be stressful. But seriously, I have to. So, I can try to overcome my barrier of being lazy. And being busy works for me, because it stops me from thinking about unhappy stuff, and it stops me from thinking about Invalid stuff. As usual. =) I just love school.

And seriously, I’m still not in an EXTREMELY good mood.

As what ive said, I do not see the need to keep saying I miss home, I miss my frenz, I miss whoever, whatsoever. I don’t see the need to saying it over and over again. I don’t see the need of even reminding myself that I miss them. I don’t wanna lose focus, in my studies. I know I will, if I do think and remind myself of these things. Which is what I don’t want.

Gosh. I’ve certainly changed. No doubt about it. And it’s for the good. What’s so bad about changing? Since it’s for the good. People changed with different environments. And it’s only good, if you change to adapt. Not change, to fit into. I’m becoming more quiet, but at the same time, vocal. I’m becoming “allergic” to dialect’s profanities, which is why I don’t say it. And now, I don’t even wanna say the F word. It’s not nice to hear a girl say it. It just ruins the whole image. I’ve done rejections, and denied guys as soon as I know they’re trying to get me. I’m not saying I’m pretty whatsoever, but I’m just saying I don’t really do it in the past. As in I don’t make it clear to them that I don’t like anything more of them than just friends. What’s so wrong about changing? Did I change for the bad? It’s up to you to conclude. But so far, I’m nicer than how I was back in Singapore. And I’m gonna stay this way. Until few says I’ve changed for the worst. Till then, I’ll reflect upon myself again and make changes.

Anyways, gotta go. Bye.